Raegan has said from day 1 that she is having a brother. While we were building the house she kept saying the baby's room was baby brothers room. I tried to keep reminding her that she might be having a sister but no, she was dead set on a brother.
From very early on I said it was a boy. I think when I was 5 weeks I went to Gymboree and bought a little football onesie. It has been hanging on display in Ryan's closet. I was having boy dreams, and the pregnancy was very different. I have been so much more sick, more headaches, not as much energy, still not working out, no appetite, car sick, constipated at the beginning, and the list goes on. Then about a week ago I had a dream it was a girl and we were trying to decide on a name and were talking about Harper. Then it seemed like everyone I knew that was due in the Spring were all having girls. We didn't have a girl name picked out. A list but nothing we were in love with. Harper, McKenzie, Quinn, Taylor. Middle names Lillian, Louise or Grace. Last night, the night before our appointment, I had another girl dream and I even saw her and she looked just like me. So going into today I was leaning more towards girl. And I guess part of me didn't want to find out yet because I didn't want Ryan to be disappointed if it was another girl. Even though he said he would love having another little daddy's girl, I knew how much he wanted his son, his little football player, his buddy to fish and build things with.
Having a girl would also mean she would get all of Raegan's hand-me-downs since they both would be warm weather babies. We have a pink carseat, pink swing, pink bumbo, pink stroller, so many baby dolls and girl toys. That would all be too easy and too nice on our bank account. I did buy a bouncy seat from Woot that was more gender neutral with blue and brown polka dots and a Rock and Play from Amazon that was yellow. Just in case in was a boy and at that time we weren't going to find out the gender.
When we got to our appointment Raegan was excited for the fish tank. I saw my friend Amy there who has 2 year old twin girls and just found out she is having another girl, due a week or two after me. We went back for our ultrasound and the tech took her time taking all the measurements. Fluid levels, spine, brain, liver, kidney, heart, placenta, cord, ect. By date I should be 20 weeks 1 day. But baby was measuring in at 12 oz which is 20 weeks 3 days. That would make the due date May 14 instead of 16. I said from the beginning that I knew when I ovulated and according to that my due date was May 14 but the doctor went with the May 16 day. So Ryan and I have been telling everyone May 15. Ryan and Raegan were able to see the screen but I couldn't. He was just smiling and grinning the whole time. I was glad he got to see the baby more than me since I can feel him move and kick everyday. The tech finally turned the screen so I could see it. It was so cool to be able to feel the baby punch and then see it on the screen. Raegan was asleep during her ultrasound the entire time, with her legs crossed. We weren't able to tell gender on the first try with her. The tech confirmed what I have been saying this entire time, that the baby was sitting on my bladder. The baby had his hand up by his face, you could see him open and close his mouth and then punch me and rub his eyes. It was unbelievable. I don't remember Raegan's scan being as clear as it was today. Granted it was 3 years ago and they could have a new machine now but it was great.
The tech then said lets listen to HIS heartbeat. That caught my attention because she had not revealed the gender to us yet. The heart rate was 143. That was much lower than it was in previous appointments and Raegan's was never that low. She was always above 160. I immediately new it was a boy. Susan the tech then asked us if we wanted to know the gender at which point I hesitated and Ryan said, "YES!" She scanned between the legs and it was VERY, VERY obvious that it was a BOY! No denying it. No questioning it. With Raegan we saw the 3 lines but the tech said she was 90% sure but dont go painting anything pink. I went and got another elective ultrasound that confirmed it was a girl. This time I don't need it. You could see where the cord was and it was not between his legs! I looked at Ryan and you could tell he was over the moon. Raegan pretty much said "told ya!"
We then saw Dr. Gates and mainly talked ND football, as Raegan was wearing her ND shirt for tonights game. We did talk baby a little bit and then I had to get blood work done and off to Pita Pit we went for lunch.
We are currently discussing names and have a short list. We are pretty set on one as of now but I am not sure if we will reveal it. Although Raegan knows it and says it all the time. But she doesn't pronounce it very clear so others probably wont be able to figure out what it is.
I went to Target today and bought "Baby Bear" as we have been calling him for weeks now (Raegan was obsessed with the book Baby Bear, Baby Bear for the past 4-5 months and reads it every night before bed) a couple little outfits. Of course they all had footballs and soccer balls on them. We have the new car seat picked out and need to order it- the website says there are only 4 left in stock, baby bedding picked out, and the new crib. Raegan doesn't use her crib anymore, she is in a twin bed but we took her crib and converted it into the headboard for the guest bedroom. Ryan doesn't want to worry about putting it back together correctly so we are just going to buy new. I also have the bedding I want in my online shopping cart at Target. It is Bananafish Nantucket print. It looks so preppy and cute! It's navy blue, green and white and has little Alligators on it. Raegan's bedding was also Bananafish and I loved it. Very happy with the quality of it.
We are thrilled to be having a boy, the Hahaj name carries on. I am excited Raegan will continue to be my only little girl, my only princess and as of now we only have one wedding to pay for in 20+ years! I am however torn about the thought that I just turned 27 and this will probably be my last pregnancy. Now that we have one of each Ryan wants to be done. And knowing how sick I have been with both kids I don't have any desire to go through it again. Just remind me of that in two years when I get baby fever! I am also nervous about raising a little boy. Everything I know is girl. Raegan is easy. This baby is already so much more active than Raegan ever was. He might be a wild one. But we are ready for May! Let's hope the next 4.5 months fly by as fast as the first half has!
